Prayer

(Note from the author: I found this prayer while cleaning my files today. It was written on Feb. 27, 2005 at 9:58pm. I don't remember what happened the day I wrote this prayer. But I believe that God has indeed produced something good out of this.)

currently feeling: down

Dear Lord,
I'm sorry if i am not a good christian. I feel very bad for disappointing you. Things have been confusing lately. I guess I have strayed these few weeks. It's really really hard to follow you in this crazy world. There are a lot of noises in my ears that I find it difficult to hear yours. Please help me. I feel sorry because I didn't trust you and didn't believe that you have a plan for me. I can't see my future. I feel that I have no use in this world. I give pain to those I love and my stay here seems to bring more bad things than good. I don't know what your purpose is in my life lord, but I will trust you. I know and I believe that you do have a plan. Help me lord to continue trusting you even when times might feel down, wierd and painful. I know lord that there will be more challenges for me. These challenges are not here for nothing. I know you give us pain because you're preparing me for something. Like an oyster, it feels pain before they produce lovely pearls. You are giving me pain so I too can produce something beautiful...
Amen.

new feeling: revitalized, energized, empowered