Double Agents

Last camp I attended, we had a spy game activity. During that activity, two of our team members were kidnapped. Our task was to rescue our teammates with the use of the clues left by the kidnappers. At the end of the game, we found out that one of our team members was a double agent- meaning, he was misleading us!

The organizers explained to us the meaning of the game... Our team is like the church. We must go out and rescue people out there who need Christ but throughout our mission, there will always be people who will discourage us and stop us from performing our mission. These are double agents.

I've been in my church for 8 years already. I've always looked up to the leaders of our church since I was attending the youth fellowship. I always prayed to God to have that privilege of serving in the church. I was delighted that after 4 years, I was called into service. Although I was hesitant at first because God placed me in the worship ministry. Everyone knows I have NO musical talent of whatsoever. I only sing one note and couldnt play any single instrument. But I was willing anyway. God blessed me in that ministry and Im still there after 3 years. God called me to different ministries and Im so delighted to be used by God so effectively in the church especially in the youth ministry.. But that journey was not as beautiful and as easy as I narrate it. There were times of hesitation, times of struggle and times of discouragements. These where the times where people doubt you, people expected so much from you. These where the times where you feel unworthy of such position in the church. These were times where balancing priorities become so difficult. Being a leader especially a Christian leader is not easy. There are so many eyes looking up on us and no one knows how much pressure we feel to be perfect and blameless in the sight of others.

I can take the persecution of non-Christians. I've had a lot of those during my college days where I've been told that Christians are so discriminating because we dont want to be courted by non believers. Much more that Im Chinese. People see me as a discriminating racist. I can take the persecution of non-Christians but I CAN NEVER TAKE the PERSECUTIONS of FELLOW CHRISTIANS. Let me repeat that to show more emphasis. I can never take the persecutions of fellow Christians. We are suppose to be working for the same BOSS, our Lord Jesus Christ. Why are we putting each other down? Why are we discouraging one another? We are of the same body. It's stupid to put one part of the body down. I admit that I have put some fellow Christians down too in the past. I have become judgmental and narrow minded. But I'm truly sorry for that. I have NO RIGHT to judge people because no one knows their true intentions except for God. And if ever their intentions are not really pure, I have no business with it because s/he is only accountable to God. We as fellow brothers and sisters in Christ are here to support and encourage one another. Not judge one another. That's God's job. Not ours. God gave us each other to help us grow in each other. If ever we know of a brother or sister who is not doing his/her job well in serving the Lord, we shouldn't talk behind his/her back nor discourage her. Jesus never did that to the tax collectors and sinners. Instead, he showed them His love and brought them back renewed and ready for service. What we should do instead is make them aware of their actions in a loving and encouraging manner just as Jesus did. :)