Of Gossips and Rumors

i use to love saturdays but now im terrified of it. i feel disturbed and anxious because i kinda expect something terrible to happen like another issue or gossip or bad news about me might pop up again. im actually expecting something like that will happen again to me right now since today is a saturday.
i know i havent been really mature in handling issues especially the latest one. I know i shouldn't be affected because it isn't true. i know it with all my heart that it isn't true. Im not bugged that people talk behind my back. I dont really care what they think of me. I never did. Im just bugged because someone really important and close to me believed it. And the point that people close to me believed makes it harder for me to cope. I believe that those people know me better than any other person on this earth and the fact that they believe in the issues made me even question myself i was really like that.. I had a lot of encouragement from friends but the best i got was, "stay strong". i dont know why that made a big impact on me but its sufficient for me to hold on. The idea that God knows what's truly in our hearts makes me more fired up and as much as i want to prove to them that they're wrong, i dont think that i should because i dont owe anyone any explanation. who are they anyway? God knows who i really am and that's enough.