Church

This is just to vent out feelings of whatsoever and has no intention to address anybody. I just need to get this out.

I feel so restless for not attending church today. Feels like a part of my soul has been torn apart. It's just that i really need to go this morning because I've been so busy for the whole week that I hardly read my devotions and pray. For the longest time, I haven't really got up from this hell hole of work I'm in to spend time with friends and God. Sure, i spend time with friends in school but that's different. What I meant was go out on a gimmik. Loosen up and forget the stress for a while. Not that nobody's inviting... it's just that I'm too scared to ask permission. These days its not so easy to ask permission regardless of the circumstance. Dont ask why... Anyway, I just really need this morning to talk to God before all the day's work start to pile up. I expect today to be a very hectic one. Not just with thesis but also with works from other subjects. I just need a short time in God's presence. I want to tell Him my burdens, my joy and my struggles throughout the week. That's all. Nothing more. Nothing less. God knows my intentions and I know that they are pure because He told me so. I couldn't sleep again this morning when I found out that I couldn't go to church so I closed my eyes and I sang, I prayed and I worshiped the Lord this morning. I realized that the church is not a building. I always seem to forget that concept even though I've heard it for like a million times. Anyway, I vented everything out to God this morning until I fell asleep. And although I was not able to sleep well, I felt a bit better and a bit at peace with the world. Ive been really stressed out for the past week that I have been cranky and mataray to a lot of people. Even my groupmates.

The day has started long ago and work is starting to pile up but Im ready because I know God is by my side.