Post Birthday Entry

I've realized that it's still my birthday if I were in another country. haha.

Anyway, I just want to share about my birthday week. I would have to say that this week was one of my roughest week ever. I experienced a lot of mental, emotional and spiritual pains. I was mentally challenged by school works, emotionally challenged by people around me and somehow couldn't feel God. I've been seeking Him this week and I couldn't feel Him responding. Though I know He's just there silent somewhere, I just feel somewhat alone because I've always had Him with me through every trials.

Feb 16, 2007 was not one of my best days ever nor my worst. It was topsy turvy! But as I think about it, I am still one of the most blessed people in the world. I have friends who took the time to plan out a surprise for me last thursday; a great family went out of their way to surprise me with a cake yesterday at BYF; and my church family who cooperated with the surprise yesterday at BYF. I was also blessed to talk to a few friends to make me realize that I am really blessed beyond imagination. Sometimes we're too confined in the "box of ourselves" that we fail to see that there are far worse things than what we are currently facing. We complain and we feel bad if things don't work the way we want them to.

Maybe God was not silent after all. Maybe I was just playing deaf because I didn't want to hear what I wanted to hear. Maybe I was not listening...

As I look back on the day I turned 20, I would have to say that it's one of my most blessed day ever! As I leave my teen years and mature another year, I pray to God that He continues to give me the strength to carry on despite the difficulties. I pray that I may continue to be available for Him and set my eyes on Him alone.

One last time... BLESSED BIRTHDAY to ME.