Disturbances in the country

This is what is on my mind right now:
Malapit lng bahay ko sa Fort. Punta na kaya ako dun? Support the Lasalle brothers! Tama na Gloria. You've caused too much disturbance in our country already. Anu pa ba gusto nya mangyari??

Our country is already in chaos and all people can think about is whether there will be classes tomorrow or not?? Think about if you will be alive tomorrow or not!! No wonder our country is in chaos. Filipinos do not care about the country. They only care about themeselves and their convinience. When will you wake up? When blood have been shed already? Do we have to wait for that? I hope not... Wake up Filipinos! When will you be contented and learn to love your country?

Hell Week

Here's a brief story on what happened last week:

Our mock defense last tuesday turned out to be a disaster! We showed doc lloyd our project and he was frustrated and dissapointent. H said a lot of things to improve our project. He commented that our content is not effective and our project has no structure. After all the work and sleepless nights this is what we got? Imagine how crushed I felt when I heard that... I don't want to fail CRSDEVE but that's the path we are leading to. After the class, my groupmates and I went to the Philippine Sports Commission and asked for someone who knows the game Sipa. We consulted her and showed doc lloyd what we've done. He said that it's now much better and we are now going somewhere. For the past few days we worked on our project with full force. My groupmates slept over my house so we can work on our project. I think we're doing better now. I just hope the panelists on Tuesday would think so too. I'm currently still working on my project but I want to share this experience because I couldn't have gone back up if it's not for God's help. told a friend of mine about what happened during the defense. He told me to just trust in God's plans and that he'll pray for me. When I found out that we had to start our project back from 0, I panicked of course. But I didn't feel hopeless because I know God is with me. I learned that we must never loose hope. If you do it's the end of you. When life's circumstances blocks you from your goal, consult God and find a way out. He will surely help you as long as you have Him by your side. I surrendered the project to God and look what He did. He brought us back up again. Thank you God. You have turned my trial into triumph. Thank you also everyone's prayers and encouragements. =D You guys are truly a blessing!

- NO SLEEPING -

Feb. 20, 2006 has marked my history. It's the first night I didn't sleep.

Congratulations CRSDEVE, you just made history! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW??
I hope you are... Now, can I have my normal life back?

Break time from CRSDEVE

I'm so tense! I keep on thinking about our CRSDEVE mock defense tommorow. I'm scared of the panelists and what they might say about our courseware. I'm scared because I feel that we still have a LOT of things to do and we only have one day to finish it!
I know God will get us through this but I can't help feeling a bit nervous.
Lalng... I just need to get this off my chest. I'm going back to work...

If anybody reads this, pray for us. Thanks. =D

Blessed

My family is one of the best gifts God has given me. My family is more than just family. They are my source of strength, my shoulders to cry on, my healers, my advisers, my defenders and my secret keepers. My brother may be annoying at times but he's the sweetest, most thoughtful little brother I could ever have. He's always there to help me and defend me. My mom may be makulit at times but she's the most selfless person I've ever met. She always helps me and my shoti with our projects, stays up late with us, does things with us even if she's very tired and always finds time to be with us.
Yes, I will admit that I am spoiled. I'm too blessed. God has given me everything that I will ever need. I'm soo grateful that I can't stop writing about it. =D

"When you have nothing left but God, then for the first time you will become aware that God is enough." - Maude Royden

Happy Birthday

Today is the start of my last teen year and as I look back at my life, I don't know how I could ever thank God for all the blessings he poured into my life. He has always been faithful and just throughout my life. He provides me with everything I need and surrounds me with such wonderful people.
I wouldn't be the person I am today if not for the people around me. I'm even thankful for the unlikeable people in my life. They taught me how to be more patient and understanding. They also made me appreciate more the people who are always there for me. One of the best gifts the Lord gave me is my family. They're the ones who are literally always there for me. They're there to share my happy moments and they're there to bring me up during my lowest moments. I also thank the Lord for giving me such wonderful friends. Though we're all busy with our own lives, they never fail to find time to keep in touch and be there when I need them. I'm thankful because God gave me friends who help me grow mentally and spiritually.
These people are my pillars of support and my shoulders to cry on. They guide me through my life. They support me when I'm doing something good and give me some spanking when I'm doing something wrong. I couldn't thank God enough for all the things He has given me!! How I wish a million thank you would do. But He has done sooo much in my life. I'm so blessed because God has given me another year to live and continue to glorify and honor His name.

Thanks everyone for making my birthday a memorable one. I love you all. =D

The Coal Basket Bible

(Note from the author: I received this article from a forwarded mail. I find the message very nice.)

The story is told of an old man who lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning, Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading from his old worn-out Bible. His grandson who wanted to be just like him tried to imitate him in any way he could.

One day the grandson asked, "Papa, I try to read the Bible just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Bible do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and said, "Take this coal basket down to the river and bring back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told, even though all the water leaked out before he could get back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, "You will have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again.

This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was "impossible to carry water in a basket," and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You can do this. You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try again.

At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got very far. The boy scooped the water and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, "See Papa, it's useless!"

"So you think it is useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket." The boy looked at the basket and for the first time he realized that the basket looked different. Instead of a dirty old coal basket, it was clean. "Son, that's what happens when you read the Bible. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, it will change you from the inside out. That is the work of God in our lives. To change us from the inside out and to slowly transform us into the image of His son."

Things to do...

Organize my laptop.
Fix my pictures from India and Switzerland.
Fix video from Switzerland.
Customize this blog.
Eat all day without feeling guilty!
Spend more time with God.
Try new things
~> like kite-flying, star-gazing, picnics, etc.

A Song Dedicated To My Mom

Thank you MOM
By Good Charlotte

I'm sitting here I'm thinking back to a time when I was young...
My memory, is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink, you were downstairs, you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you, and all the times that you stayed true to us
Now we say...
I said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
And even when the times got hard, you were there to let us know...that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man, you taught me how to understand the things, people do
You showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Always, always and forever

Some thoughts

About school...
Just to get it off my chest, I want to write about what I feel. I'm not in a very good mood today. Projects keep pouring in and some groupmates just don't care. Sure they help but I have to tell them what to do everytime. I just hope they have the initiative to do contribute something without being told... I just hope they stop making excuses and start moving. As if I don't have other subjects and things to think about.

About the stampede last week...
The Wowowee incident just proves how undisciplined Filipinos are. Poor management and selfish reasons led to the death of 74 people. I wonder why people can't compose themselves. Everytime I ride the MRT/LRT or drive my car, no one ever gives way! They only think of themselves. Just as long as it is convinient, they go ahead and do whatever they please without thinking of its consequences. Just like animals. I even think animals are more disciplined than humans. Birds are able to fly together as a flock. A pride of lion can protect themselves. Why can't we do it? I don't know if it's our culture or what because I've been to other countries and they are not like that. I've been to Switzerland and cars always give way to pedestrians. I don't know who to blame too. Is it the government's fault for failing to educate people or it's just in them? Because even highly educated people like the government officials can even be so undisciplined. I feel so ashamed to be living in this country.

Personality Test - What Planet Are You From?

You Are From Uranus

You shine with brilliant creativity, and you're more than a little eccentric. You love everything unusual and shocking. You're one far-out chick or dude. Anything unconventional excites you - and you have genius potential. Just don't let your rebel side get the best of you, or else you'll alienate everyone. Your original thinking and funky attitude is all you need to be you.

Thorns

I just had a realization.

I'm almost halfway through college! After all those breakouts, pressures, sleepless nights and whole lot of unhealthy stuff, I've made it. I would have to say it's not easy. Not easy at all. There were times when I wanted to give it all up nd shift to an easier course. But I guess that wouldn't solve my problems. I may have a more relax life in another course but that wouldn't take me to my dreams. I just have to accept that there's always no easy way out when you want it the most.

The Parable
Jack was a shepherd living in a small town. One day there was famine in their town. For days, there wasn't anything to feed the sheep. Jack heard that there was a field in the other side of the country filled with green grass. Along with other shepherds, Jack set on to travel to the other side of town. As they travelled, they came across a fork in the road. One was paved and the other was rough. The other shepherds decided to go to the paved road but Jack decided to cross the rough road. The rough road was full of thorns but Jack still pushed on. Later that day, Jack became tired and badly bruised by the thorns. He sat down on a rock an started to cry. He regretted taking the rough road and wished he had listened to the other shepherds. Then he remembered the knife that he brought. With new hope, he got up and continued his journey using the knife to cut the thorns down. One day, Jack met the other shepherds. They were all badly bruised. The paved road led them to the rough road. The construction was not yet done and they couldn't get pass the thorns. Jack merely smiled.

The Lesson
Thorns are part of achieving you dreams. But it doesn't mean that you have to go through it alone. God gives us knives to cut the thorns down. My knives are my friends and family. They're the ones who are there to help me cut the thorns blocking me from my dreams. Sure, I can have an easier route to my dream by taking a shortcut and freeload on people. Many people have done that. But what they do not know is that there are more thorns in the outside world. If I don't have experience with thorns because I freeloaded on people the entire college life, how am i to survive the outside world? The people I freeload won't always be there for me. But if I chose the rough road with thorns, I carry on the knowldge on how to battle the thorns. That way, I already know how to battle the thorns in the outside world. =D